Monday, February 20, 2006

ode to my uterus

ewww, sorry about that folks. Not really ... well really but that truly is between her and me and a private conversation we've been having most of this very sleepless night so I won't bore you with it.

I'm so very sorry I haven't been around for... YIKES!!! 20 days?????

I had much better intentions than that but to be honest this has been a really not so good month. I have not been feeling well at all; and my swan song moon time got so very bad on February 6th that the evening culminated with a very dramatic... and painful... visit to the ER.

Needless to say, that while I'm anxious as all get out (far more than I probably should be for a routine procedure) about my surgery at noon today ~ Feb 20th, 12 noon PST (Fullerton, CA) for any astrology buffs - or a real live professional like my buddy April Elliott Kent ;-) ~ I know it's got to be a better outcome by far than the miserable month I've just had.

Anyway, apologies to all. I'm not dead (please the God/dess and knock on wood) yet anyway and I do fully intend to come back if you all will bear with me a little longer.

My deepest apologies also to all who have left comments on my blog. I really meant to respond on several occasions (as well as keep my email box from overflowing repeatedly) but I just haven't been up to snuff lately. I appreciate everyone's comments; I love you all and right now I'd just like to shamelessly beg one and all to send your most positive intentions and prayers my way, if you could. Believe me, it is most appreciated.

The reason I'm a bit freaked out about my surgery has a little bit to do with my and my hubby's synastry in regard to it. If this doesn't make sense to you don't worry. If you are April or someone else who cares to take a gander at it, by all means please go for it. But in the last analysis, it probably won't matter much at this late date, coz for better or worse I know I'm gonna need to go through with it and it's only a few hours away.

Anyway, details:

me: 01-03-1958 10:04 a.m. Indianapolis, Indiana

he: 12-07-1958 11:52 a.m. San Antonio, Texas

event: 02-20-2006 12:00 noon Fullerton, CA

In my case, I can honestly say that I do know that a little knowledge is a very dangerous thing but what can I say. I've been apprehensively looking over the charts for days now; which was stupid when one considers that I probably don't know enough to even begin to understand what I thought I might be seeing... AND I never could bring myself to try and get any outside assistance from those who know better and might be able to help. I don't know why... I really don't, anymore than I know why I am stupidly rambling on about it right now. I guess I've just been committed to this date because it took quite a bit of juggling to get this date set up and because I'm resigned to the fact that it needed to happen. Que Sera Sera...

And of course in all likelihood I know that everything will be just fine. And I also know that whatever the outcome is, I will still ultimately be just fine and it will have been meant to be. So enough of this idiotic and morbid rambling.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers and I will be back as soon as I can.

Did I mention lately that I love you all dear readers???? Well, I do...

That is all. Love and Light to each and every one of you and yours!!!!
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